Being Diffrent

Sometimes life just needs to stop, so that we can just take a deep breath. But it never dose and it just seems to go on without us. My name is Khoa Nguyen and for the past three years of my life, I’ve been living in a lie, a lie where everyone is just playing a part. I’ve been so sick lately of everybody around me and especially the kids at school. I never took time to observe my “peers” (although I don’t fit in much with their ideas) but I did, and I was disgusted with what I saw.


This article is a little different, but it makes sense. The kids at school are so, “high school,” just like in the movies. But it’s not even like that, guys seem to be bigger jerks and assholes, and girls seem to be a lot sweeter to everyone but behind their back some are totally bitches. I’ve been living for 16 years and in the last three, I feel as if I’ve wanted to just die just about every day.
Sometimes I just need to ask myself, “What am I doing with my life?” or “Why do I hang around these people?” But I can’t do it, I just can’t answer the questions. The people around me make me want to kill myself and it’s even worse when they appear as your friends. I’ve just been getting sick of high school and can’t wait to go to college (hopefully in New York) were I can finally meet some poised, cultured people.


The worst part for me being in high school is the fact that I’m an open Gay. The kids there are not to accepting and I can’t even think of having the guys at school know (even though they do.) I can walk down the hall any day of the week and see kids talking about me, saying things like “fag” or “no homo,” but that’s life I guess. Most ,if not all the time, it will be a male doing this. I’m used to it by now, but it still gets annoying and most of the time I just try to ignore it.

But having things like this happen to you for the past 3 years can really impact your life. I’m just not happy at school anymore, not like the way I feel when I go shopping. Also, people will ask me the stupidest questions about my sexuality, and this time it’s not just the guys.

Life is just like a fun house, it’s not always fun.